After picking Margo up from her father's apartment she starts telling me that she met his new moose. I was incredibly confused and said, "Daddy has a pet moose?" Margo continues, very excited, "Well YES!! Her name is Vicky and she's not as pretty as you mommy." Hmm...a moose that wasn't as pretty as me.
I called my ex husband while Margo was occupied with Dora the Explorer. Ivan and I have had a very tumultuous relationship but, for Margo's sake we are on friendly terms. He sounded extremely surprised when I told him of my confusion over the moose. Actually, he sounded almost embarrassed when he explained that Vicky was his new girlfriend and that he "may" have called her his MUSE in front of our daughter. Alright, so my blood was boiling. It seems like every time Margo has an overnight visit with her father some new woman is also included. I guess his starving artist, brooding nature was a successful pick up. When I look back on our relationship, I think to myself that I was once his muse. Happily in fact. I guess after having Margo I realized that I needed a more stable partner. Our differences weren't something that worked anymore. I've managed to have a string of relationships in the 3 years since our divorce but, nothing as intense as my relationship was with Ivan.
Karen said that I've become incredibly guarded and that I shouldn't be angry with Ivan for moving on. I guess maybe it is my own fault. I just expect a lot for myself. I do still believe I'm a princess, in my mid thirties with a 4 year old. Can I still meet my prince charming? It will be my mission to find out. It's time to bring sexy back.
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